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Thursday, March 16, 2006

Is my life fabulous?

That is what I wondered today,..... my 36th Birthday. I wondered if its what I thought it would be? When I was 10 years old, did I ever wonder what my life would be like at 36? easy question to answer, no, I am sure that I thought 36 was so old I would be dead.... Forward 10 years. Did I wonder it at 20? I am sure I thought about it, and figured I would be doing kind of what I am, raising some kids, happily married to Jeff. Ok forward 10 more years, At 30, I was no longer happily married to Jeff, in fact, I had been divorced one year already, and YES, I wondered what my life was going to be like at 35, 36, 37, you get the picture.
So is it what I thought it would be? A little bit, I am here, raising some kids... correct that, raising 3 teenage boys and a 3 year old. I am married, is it happily? Well, time will tell us that one, for now I can say that I Love my husband, and I enjoy our life together. But its not without its fault, Maybe we are still getting to know one another, I know I am still learning things about him, and I am sure he is still about me. I can say that when I turn 46, I will only be raising one teenage boy, and who knows, I could be a Grandmother by then! I am going to think alot about what I want my life to be like in ten years, and I hope its everything I picture.

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